Healthy Living Sucks...

So Let me be vulnerable/transparent or a moment...

I hate working out, and drinking water, and eating small portion meals, and having to wait months to see results. I hate that I love Sundrop so much that when I gave it up for lent, I thought I was going to die. I hate that I love dessert so much that everytime I have something salty (or eat in general) I feel the complete "Need" to have something sweet. I don't know what you would call that, but I call that ADDICTION...

So Wednesday was officially 2 months of me working out almost every day. I have to admit, I'm pretty darn proud of myself (and could not have gone this far with out my buddy Abby). And out of those 2 months, I have not lost a single pound... Now that is even more frustrating than giving up Sundrop. And I thought giving it up was life or death (ha), needless to say, it wasn't, and my teeth will be thankful that I stopped drinking that too.

Anyway, side tracking... 2 months working out, zero weight lost...  

However, I can tell a difference in my clothes and in my "Birthday Suit" but I'm obviously still not at my goal. And to be even more honest, I don't really care about the number of the weight, I just want to be healthy and look cute in my clothes, and have confidence. So with all of that said, YES I hate working out, drinking water and portioning my meals. BUT, I LOVE the way I feel after working out, and going to bed after pushing my body to certain limits, and waking up and having energy (still working on my morning happy face, cause that is none existent). But over all it is such a better way to live, and I wish that I had done this when I was in better shape and smaller, so that I would have this healthy habit throughout my mid-twenties, and not beginning in my mid-twenties. No sense in looking into the past though, I'm looking ahead to the future, and I'm pretty excited about my new healthy body :)! I'm excited about where it will take me and Kyle in the future when we are looking to start a family, and when we do have a family and play with our children! I don't want to be a lazy mom, that doesn't go outside and play with their children. And by golly, I won't be! I'm changing things here and now! And I'm excited about it! :)

Just wanted you guys to know ;)

So to celebrate this up and coming new me, we are having a Crosswinds vs. Crosswinds Softball game tonight, and I'm just gonna say, it's gonna be awesome! Team Blue is probably gonna lose, but hey, we can still hope, and it will be fun to play with other people in our church.... I just hope it's not an embarassing loss. So I'll try to take some pictures of the event tonight, and have pictures up here soon :)

Have a fabulous day!